Friday, July 13, 2007



As you all know, school has been hectic-- I am pertaining to the extremely high demands; demands of all school-related facets. At times, I can't help but give up. A point wherein I sit back, relax, clear my thoughts and get a good night's sleep: making the most of the 5 hours left before I wake up once again and do morning (schoolday) rituals. Believe me, I am suffering much than I had expected. Half of this I have prepared for; the other half was just a shocking reality. Shocking enough that it can actually eat up my grades and give me a failing mark on the test if I just wasn't that tough enough to condition myself that late night studying can be equal to good grades.. atleast. True enough, I have dark skin under my eyes for proof. Blech, Pah.

Bitter truth: if you do not study, you'll fail. It's kind of basic actually-- basic enough that a first grader can understand. But, the challenge comes in once you "do" the actions. The actions which are synonymous to endless studying and devotion of time to analyzing. HUMUNGOUS SUFFERING. Period.

Maybe, I am partly going ga-ga over school-- I think 90% of my life surrounds it anyway. Sounds too geeky? Yeah. Too geeky that I, myself, cannot even fully process. The thought of surving sophomore year is quite an evil-ish dream. It is NOT the easiest. You always have to study, and there's barely enough time for everything. I am such a nerd that even on weekends, I seldom watch tv. Good enough, the internet is here to bring me back to normal life-- if it weren't for this, I would have fallen into the school's hypnotizing realms. Ack.

Start of the day. I usually devote time to attend early morning mass. I know that this may sound too religious, but it's the one that helps me survive the challenging experiences I have to encounter throughout the day. It works as some sort of energy-booster, really.

Well, the simple hi's and hello's lighten my burdens in a way and thinking that people care about me or better yet believe in what I can do, is a huge thing already. I do not know with you guys, but the "thank-you's" I hear from my classmates (whenever I help them) are one of the simple words that create a big impact. I am satisfied that I put my knowledge to good use. The smiles-- yes, even these simple gestures-- are worth seeing for a person who is always held back and trapped by school pressure. FRIENDS, the most precious gift school could offer.

Little things are what we usually take for granted, (wrongly) associating them as useless and "..just not a big deal." But if you come to think of it, these little things are a way for acquiring bigger and more exciting surprises in life. What these little things do is motivate us-- motivate us and inspire us to undergo a change which will, in the end, benefit us: personality, way of life, values. Simple things= simple joys= enjoying life.