Tuesday, September 30, 2008



I think you know how irritating the feeling is once you know that you've lost something that belongs to you. Knowing that you freely gave the person the chance to borrow it and that it did not come back to you anymore makes it a whole lot worse. I'm just waiting for the ground to open up and swallow me and for gravity to drag me down under because I could not help but get teary-eyed having been knowledgeable that my Staedtler pens-- oh, those precious pens!!-- are nowhere in sight. No, it's not that I want to cry over those pens. Rather, I am severely pissed-off by the fact that I took care of it for the past (almost) five months, only to realize that it will be misplaced by someone else. Oooh, this is what I loathe about letting people borrow my things. As for now, I think I have bothered too many acquaintances with my problem-- I know it's quite shallow but I do not care. Having some thing missing wraps me in a feeling of inadequacy. And I'm sure you know how overwhelming such can be.

Unfortunately, as some may call it shallow, I'd opt to call it, by preference, disturbing. I can't help but think where the hell it is and what the heck happened to it. AND OF COURSE, Why, by all means, did I allow someone to borrow the whoooooole set. Ha! I could not even focus on my Algebra test earlier because I was too much bothered by it being lost.

Oh God, it's DAY 2 of my investigation and nothing good is coming out of it. @$@#%& AAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! I'm hating this.

Monday, September 29, 2008



Hail, Hail! Finally, I have reached the pinnacle of my Chemistry grades. Alas, I proved to myself that though Science is not really my thing-- or Chemistry for that matter-- I can still excel in it. Oh, how I wish it would be the same for both Filipino and Geometry. But for now, I am very much satisfied with the perfect score and it definitely made my day.

Well, Mondays are hell, as usual. I get so groggy every Monday, knowing that it is the one which puts a halt to my lazy yet relaxing (hopefully!) weekends. And mind you, two days of no school is not enough. If only people in the Department of Education could extend our weekend until Mondays, I am quite sure it will really be helpful-- students will have ample time to rest; plus, they would not easily get tired of going to school, I suppose.

Things would have flowed on smoothly had I not slept (just a BIT) during CLE class. Mind you, I was fighting 'til the very last ounce of energy to hold back those eyelids (which cried quite a puddle last night) but it was no use. I had to give in to such a feeling if I wanted to focus on the other classes later on. It was a one-minute rest at most but it was well worth it. However, this was not the mere matter which took over my immense feeling of contentment. Instead, it was the fact that my whole set of Staedtlers are lost and god knows where it is at the moment. Oh, it pains me to have my things lost-- and a whole set of quite expensive pens for that matter. I cannot embrace the idea that the 600++ bucks my sister paid for it was put to waste within a time duration of merely five months. Well, the facts that hurt the most are: 1) The person who borrowed it said she returned it; and 2) I cannot seem to tell whether she did return it because I cannot seem to find it-- in my bag and anywhere at home. Ha, this is what I despise about having my things borrowed. The moment I lend it, it swings unto a 50/50 vine-- whether it gets returned or not. Another thing, I cannot seem to keep track of who borrowed my things and whether or not she returned it. As for that, I cannot particularly blame anyone for any case involving misplacement. Oh, whatever! I just hope (and PRAY) that, by some sort of miracle, my whole set of Staedtlers will be given back to me soon.. REAL SOON! And whoever took it, you know the drill.

Well, this feeling is bothering me such that I could not really focus on reviewing for Algebra. But !@E$%#!!!! I just had to let it out. And, for the record, I feel sooo much better now.